Kops-the-Jidiot

So guys I know I have been missing for awhile but holy crap have things been insane. First things first, I've been pretty inactive as of late because I lost my motivation for drawing. I had been dating this guy that influenced me to become something I was not and even though he was supportive of my talents, I felt like I shouldn't draw anymore. I had lost a lot of who I was and drawing just wasn't apart of me anymore. Though, I loved this guy a lot and I was happy with him for the most part. He went off to basic training and I loved to add a drawing to my letters to him but I was drawing for him and not for me. After basic, he went straight off to AIT where he met someone else and cheated on me. It's been a super hard couple of months and I've been pretty broken. This guy was a major part of my life. I've been making an effort to return to drawing and everything else I had left behind to replace him. I've been slowly getting there and I hope to start posting to DA again. I've been pretty tired though. A few months before this guy left for basic, I became pregnant with his child. I wanted to give the child for adoption but he didn't want that and because of the laws of where I live, I was unable to put the child up for adoption because of him. My son was born about a week ago and he is currently in my care. Being a new mother is pretty stressful but has been shaping me into a better person. I hope one day I'll be able to share my drawings with him and show him the person who I wanna be, even the person I once was before I met his father. Anyway here's to the future, may it be shaped into a beautiful piece of art.

I know I'm not the most active person on here but I promise you guys I will start sending out new art and stuffs pretty soon. I just bought a legit tablet and I'm totes excited to start using it. I've got all sorts of cool stuffs planned.

I know I'm not the most active person on here but I promise you guys I will start sending out new art and stuffs pretty soon. I just bought a legit tablet and I'm totes excited to start using it. I've got all sorts of cool stuffs planned.

I'm posting this now cuz it's getting really close to time and I'm gonna be super busy all month. So in like 2-3 months I'm going to TEMPORARILY leave DA and the rest of the internet for that matter, for several months. I'm going to serve a mission for my church for 18 months and I literally have no idea what's going to happen to me after that. I hope art will still be a part of my life and who knows? Maybe I'll make a living in designing or go into animation and make Underground Lifeguard a reality. That'll show my jerkface family! Lol

I've been super miserable for the last couple of days. I totally lost sight of myself because of what my sister said to me. She basically said that drawing is a waste of time and I should be busy all the time with school and work. She believes I would never get into art school or I can't make underground lifeguard and that I have zero knowledge in animation. I want to serve a mission for my church but my sister wants to force me to use all my time in school and work. She sees me as nothing more as a kid... I live under her roof so I don't have much of a choice.. WHY DOES MY ENTIRE FAMILY HAVE TO SUCK! *kicks bed post* ow...